thank you - humiliation ideas??

Even deidre can only come up with so many ways to say thank you before she begins to repeat herself. she’s going to go ahead and respond in bulk instead of individually. So, to E/everyone who pointed out that giving her all is always good enough she says, “Thank You/you!!!” deidre is always harder on herself than she should be. Even Master gave her “the look” after reading her post wondering what the hell she was being so hard on herself for.

Having people around who are willing to tell her the way things really are, people who support her when she doesn’t meet her own expectations, people who participate in her silliness and even make her feel good for being herself mean a lot to deidre. Chances are pretty darned good that if you are reading this you are one of those people.

Now, on to something else. Humiliation. It’s something that is pretty difficult to make this girl feel in the conventional ways. she has callers who enjoy humiliating a girl, and deidre can play along, but what they want is for her to be demeaned by drinking her piss, sucking the taste of her ass off of a dildo, drinking out of the toilet, puking, crawling around on all fours snorting like a piggie etc.

None of it works. It hasn’t since deidre had this terrible call about a year and a half ago. she went into details then, and won’t now, cause it’s pretty terrible, but it basically messed her up for several days.

deidre can, and probably has, fantasized about every conceivable subject, fantasy, kink whatever, and she gets off on it because she knows that it leads to whomever cumming. That’s the whole problem. How can doing something that eventually leads to that ultimate evidence of their pleasure (cum) ever be humiliating?

deidre’s done a few things that have been humiliating, but they are unconventional. Singing or playing her guitar are pretty humiliating and she has no idea how those things can possibly lead to pleasure, but apparently they have for at least 2 people.

The fact that she was so full of piss that she puked it up around Master’s cock was pretty humiliating. Like a good girl though she didn’t spill and (ew) swallowed it back down. The humiliating part wasn’t the piss drinking, it was doing something so inappropriate while His cock was in her mouth.

she’s had to spread her legs and hold her ass open while Master tried to dig out the little plug that her butt swallowed. she’s expelled enemas within his hearing. No matter how hard you pray, there is no beat that is appropriate to squirt that stuff out to when Enya is playing. It doesn’t cover the sound, and certainly doesn’t cover the stench. Eventually you get used to it. she’s even had to release enemas for Callers and then stick her face into the water of the toilet, pull her face out long enough to force herself to puke into it and stick her face back into the shit and puke.

she’s sent pics of her bloody cunt, cum filled cunt, shitty ass, ass while shitting, cum on face, blood on body, spanked ass-tits-thighs etc, crying, hurt, welted and so on. she’s been called cunt, whore, bitch….etc name it, it’s probably been used.

There is pretty much nothing that she can think of that will force her to feel humiliation (other than singing and guitar playing) Any ideas out there? What works with you? What you think might work with deidre?