Love or Ownership?

“If you could choose only one, would you rather be loved or owned?”

This question is so hard to answer. She would love to be able to say that being owned is the more important, she is a slave after all, but she would be lying. So much of what she does for Master, the watersports, the enemas, being available for Him whenever even when she feels grumpy or when it’s 3 o’clock in the morning (and she’s still grumpy), especially discipline, would be near impossible for her if she didn’t know that Master loved her and that she loves Him.

Sometimes, usually when she is hanging from the chains, or tied down to the bed, she feels so scared that she can’t help but sit there between strokes of the * fill in appropriate instrument of discipline here * and think why do you let Him do this to you? Why do you subject yourself to this pain? It’s always only momentary, and it happens just before that moment of mental surrender, a moment of breaking maybe, but then she answers herself “It’s because He loves you, and because you love Him and that love is worth more than anything else in the world”

deidre has thought about it, and she doesn’t honestly know if she could do it for anybody else. If something ever happens to Him, and she has to be without Him, she couldn’t ever trust anyone else again enough to give herself over so completely. she lived without being owned for almost 25 years, she could do it for another 25 years or longer if she had to.

The wonderful thing though, is that deidre doesn’t have to choose. she has both now in the most perfect balance.