The SpermCube

deidre has a fantasy that always seemed a bit unrealistic. she would be placed in a giant Plexiglas cylinder. Man after Man would come by and jerk off, with or without deidre help, into the cylinder so that eventually deidre is literally swimming in cum. this girl thinks that part that makes it the most exciting is that deidre will be able to see all of those men cumming for her, cumming on her, cumming with her. she’ll be able to get all of those guys off herself. It’s a pretty big compliment.

So this morning she was playing around on the net when she stumbled across the SpermCube.

French artist Philippe Meste’s goal is to create the biggest boxful of sperm ever. By time the it’s completed there will be one ton of human sperm inside the box. The site spermcube.org gives information on requesting a sperm donation kit or if a sperm donation isn’t your thing you can become a shareholder. Each shareholder will receive a piece of the action when the artwork is sold.

So, if this French guy can do it, why can’t deidre? People would be more willing to send her their cum than some guy right? If deidre's calculations are right it'd only be about 33,800 loads of cum.  Any volunteers?

Masochism as a Form of Pleasure

deidre has received quite a few comments and e-mails in response to the recordings that she made with Miss Isabella. One of them said,

“There is no judgment here. If you really did what you described to sell recordings, I honestly do not understand the concept. If you faked some or all of it, then I would feel better. This is not a judgment, but an admission on my part that I cannot understand this as a form of pleasure unless it comes about from pleasing someone in charge. Life is tough enough. I like and respect you too much to understand this.”

This is a person that deidre respects quite a bit (yes, even the “morning after”) He’s been trying from when we first began speaking to understand deidre’s submission outside of the bedroom.

deidre has other callers as well who’ve asked her about this very same thing. They get to know deidre and begin to feel that she’s far to nice or sweet to be in a relationship with someone who exercises His sadistic nature. They feel that deidre should be spoiled and treated like a princess, except, of course when she is being fucked like a little whore.

To be honest, deidre can only handle so much of that. Yes, presents are nice. That part of being a princess deidre could handle easily however the other aspects, the pampering, the expensive clothes and makeup and jewelry, the nails and hair, the closets full of clothes, the sitting back and having a Man wrapped around deidre’s finger manipulating Him to get her to do what she wants…all of that is just…well…too similar to parts of deidre’s marriage.

The first thing that needs to be addressed is what deidre gets out of the pain or discipline. deidre’s written before that she is just about the furthest thing there is from being a physical masochist. deidre does not like pain. deidre doesn’t yet have the ability to separate the hurt from it and to feel it simply as sensation then translate that into level of sensation which in the end makes intensity level 3 of pleasure and intensity level 3 of pain equal. At least that’s how deidre imagines that it works for you lucky people who crave this kind of thing. It’s all about the level of intensity of sensation rather than the type of sensation.

Before a session deidre can feel herself gradually begin to crumble inside. If deidre has long enough to think about what Master might do to her she comes close to panicking. The closer the time is, the more terrified deidre becomes, until finally she’s there, tied down or up, or not depending upon Master’s preference at the time. this girl tries to take deep breathes. she tries to focus and to concentrate on how honored she is supposed to feel to be giving Him this kind of pleasure.

That only lasts through the first few strokes. Then deidre starts to fight it. she doesn’t struggle or beg. It’s all a mental fight, but gradually she loses that battle too. If the session is long enough there’s a point that deidre gets to where she begins to feel sorry for herself. she wonders why they hell she submits herself to this. she wonders how long it will last. she dwells on how much it hurts and how much she hates the pain.

There’s a wall that she teeters on at this point until finally something gives inside and she falls off of it and into total submission. she comes to the point where she every part of her is at His mercy, her heart, her soul, her mind, her body. It’s all there vulnerable for Him. All thoughts cease to exist. Everything and nothing at the same time. deidre doesn’t know how to explain it. What she knows is that it’s this point, this loss of control, this wiping clean of her little slave slate, that deidre must get to.

Somehow it feeds a deep need in this girl. It’s not the pain that she needs, or the realization of His Sadistic satisfaction. It’s the act of submitting every cell and fiber and thought. Once the session is over, deidre’s body is welted and bruised but her spirit is healed of even the tiniest little bits of damage that may have developed.

The second point that needs to be addressed then would be what deidre gains out of more casual sessions such as those that she takes part in over the phone and those with Miss Isabella that don’t lead to total submission as some of the longer sessions with Master do.

deidre is a pleaser. she’s been a pleaser from a very early age. she enjoys making people happy. As a slave who has no personal property, monies, or time there are very few ways to do this. deidre can’t buy presents for people whenever she wants, she can’t send cards, or make calls, she can’t go to someone’s house and cook them dinner just to say, “I love you” What she can do though is give pleasure with her words, her imagination and her body.

Any sensation that deidre feels (pain or pleasure) through whatever acts are required to make the other person happy is lessoned as the other person’s happiness increases. The pain is such a small price to pay to hear someone laugh, or moan, or cum or to hear those precious words, “good girl” or “thank you, deidre” Those little phrases make it all worth it.

Do you love deidre?

Ahem...the correct answer is yes! :D

Do you remember the big production that Valentine's Day used to be in school? Goofy little cards and candies and cupcakes, a party, sending anon love to that special boy or girl etc. Well, deidre misses that, so we're going to do it with this neat little box down below. Sorry. No candy or cupcakes, but you can send love and hugs and kisses :)

Get your own valentinr

How to Get Out of a Ticket mp3

deidre’s caught speeding and is forced into roadside submission by Officer Isabella Valentine to get out of a DUI and going to jail for resisting an officer. deidre is strip searched and exposed to passers by while being fucked with the officer’s billy club and flashlight

If you enjoy abnormal insertions, cuffs, dominance, forced exhibitionism, girl on girl, manipulation, submission, uniforms, public exposure and more then you’ll love this mp3!

This 12 minute 48 second mp3 is downloadable in .zip format for $19.99

The Holy Fuck mp3

Virgin deidre prays to the Holy Goddess above for forgiveness of her sins and her impure sexual thoughts. deidre invokes the Holy Goddess, calling Her down to beg to be allowed to experience orgasm, to have sex. When the Holy Goddess blesses deidre with Her presence she is willing to allow the virgin deidre sexual pleasure, but only after first experiencing punishment and humiliation at her Hands. For her audacity deidre is stripped down naked before the entire congregation and bound to the cross. her hymen is sacrificed with the Golden Cross of the Holy Goddess.

Once properly chastised deidre is rewarded with The Holy Fuck, an orgasm worthy of the Holy Goddess herself. She enters into deidre to give this girl pleasure from within and without, surrounded by the orgasmic bliss of her Most Holy Goddess Isabella.

If you enjoy begging, cross fucking, girl on girl, Goddess possession, prayer, religious fetish, virgin, hymenal sacrifice, chants, orgasm, then you’ll love this fetish mp3!

This 16 minute 24 second mp3 is downloadable in .zip format for $19.99

Gender Blender - Erotic Hypnosis mp3

The second time deidre is hypnotized by Miss Isabella was a lot faster and easier after the “Isabella’s Sex Slave” recording!

deidre is hypnotized to drink two drinks. The first drink is truth serum that makes deidre tell the truth no matter how sexual or personal the question is. The second drink is a “genderbending” drink that alters deidre’s perception so that she truly believes Miss Isabella is one of her Callers. deidre even begs to suck Sir Isabella’s cock and to have Her hot load of cum down this girl’s throat.

If you enjoy begging, cock worship, erotic hypnosis, female to male hypnosis, genderbending, girl on girl, orgasm triggers, transgender play, truth serum, and more then you’ll love this mp3!

This 25 minute 04 second mp3 is downloadable in .zip format for $35.00

Trip to Bloomington

We all have “blonde moments” right. Usually they’re just little things here and there, but occasionally it’ll be something big. Well, deidre had a big one recently. It was on the first day of her trip to Miss Isabella’s home. deidre’s flight left Tampa at about 5 pm and was headed to the Bloomington/Normal Airport. Seeing the snow on the ground made deidre even more excited to be there.

After deidre got off of the plane she called Master to let Him know that she’d arrived ok and was on her way to meet Miss Isabella at baggage claim. The conversation went a little like this:

d: Hello, Master. Your slave made it to Bloomington.
M: So you made it there safe and sound, pet?
d: Yes Master.
M: Well I spoke with Isabella and she’s on her way to pick you up. She did mention one small thing though.
d: What’s that Master?
M: Well, it appears that you are in Bloomington, Illinois. Isabella lives in Bloomington, Indiana. You’re in the wrong state.
d: * laughs * very funny Master.
M: I’m serious, pet. You flew into the wrong airport.
d: * stunned silence *

That’s when the feeling of incredible stupidity and disbelief washed over deidre. What A Fucking Idiot!! Wow. See, deidre’s not a dumb person. she has a very high IQ but when it comes to geography and place names she sucks. Indiana and Illinois both start with the letter ‘I’ It didn’t even occur to her when she was making the reservation that there might be more than one Bloomington either.

It’s ok. Go ahead and have a good laugh. deidre did. Master did. Miss Isabella did.

deidre keeps consoling herself with the thought that other people have done this very same thing. In fact there’s a Bloomington in Minnesota too. It’s where the St Paul/Minneapolis airport is. The very kind woman at the BMI Airport informed deidre that they’ve had people accidentally fly there when their final destination was supposed to be in MN. It was only a handful of dumb idiots like deidre who did so, but it feels good to know that she’s not alone.

Fortunately Miss Isabella’s Home was only about 3 hours from the BMI Airport. She had hired a limo to come pick deidre up with and They just rerouted their trip. deidre would have to hang out in the baggage area for a few hours, but she didn’t mind. There were friendly people. At least it was warm. That is, until the security guard had to go on his rounds of the building and deidre got kicked out into the freezing cold at 1 am. Poor deidre is outside on the concrete at this point. There were no benches to sit on. The ground was covered with snow. she opened up her luggage, put on extra socks, an extra shirt, wrapped a scarf around her neck and head, zipped her aviator jacket up all the way over her face and then wrapped herself in her strawberry shortcake blanket. deidre was wearing more clothes at one time than she’d worn in the past month and she probably looked like some demented pink bum hanging out on the curb.

Up until the time her teeth started chattering she’d been doing ok. deidre has a great sense of humor and was able to laugh off the whole “going to the wrong state” thing but as she was sitting there outside freezing she began to cry. she was miserable and it was all because of a silly mistake. Life was sucking pretty hard. Luckily about that time is when Miss Isabella’s limo showed up. It was so warm inside!! deidre has never been happier to be in an enclosed heated place. Miss Isabella is her Knight in Shining Armor!

On the way back Miss Isabella and deidre had some great conversation. Of course She teased deidre quite a bit, but it was all in good fun. Miss Isabella gave deidre quite a few pointers for the industry, described some of Her experiences with phone sex, talked about the photo shoot She had planned for deidre, and allowed deidre to go into more depth about her slavery to Master which is what started the relationship months ago.

Miss Isabella had hoped to be able to do an average of 2 recordings together per day. There’s quite a bit of brainstorming that goes into each one. The first one had a few stops and starts due to deidre’s nervousness and inexperience with high quality professional recording equipment. There is over $10,000 worth of top of the line equalizers, mics, synthesizers, amps, stands and other equipment making the recordings that we did extremely high quality which is why they are downloadable mp3s rather than per minute recordings over the phone. We/we managed to do 2 hypnosis recordings, 8 fetish recordings and 1 interview where deidre discusses her life as Master’s slave and how much she enjoys being a phone sex operator. That’s a total of 11 recordings – almost twice what Miss Isabella had hoped for!

People have attempted to hypnotize deidre before, both over the phone and in person. While she will normally become very relaxed she doesn’t believe that she’s ever gone into a hypnotic trance…until last week. Miss Isabella hypnotized deidre, convincing this girl that she wanted to serve Miss Isabella above all Others in one of the sessions. deidre didn’t even fully realize what had taken place until listening to the finished recording. Evidently even this slave’s devotion can be temporarily switched with the right hypnotist. In the second session Miss Isabella used a deep induction technique and made deidre believe she’d been given a truth serum first and then a second drink that altered deidre’s perception so that she truly believe Miss Isabella was one of her Callers. deidre even begged to suck Miss Isabella’s cock and to have her hot load of cum down this girl’s throat.

The other recordings deidre remembers vividly. One of the best parts of being a phone sex operator is being able to live out people’s sexual fantasies. deidre was able to be a French maid, a virgin sacrifice, a naughty girl trying to get out of going to jail, and a humiliated student being punished by the principal while her classmates looked in. During the Boarding School Humiliation recording deidre felt a holed wooden paddle coming down hard on her bare ass for the first time ever. The remaining recordings are less roleplay oriented involving strap on sex, tickle fetishes, bondage, discipline and being gagged.

Out of the 11 recordings that we made together deidre’s favorite has got to be the Virgin Sacrifice. deidre has a really strong religious fetish. It’s “fuck you, god” kind of thing (insert lightening bolts and thunder here). It turns out that Miss Isabella has a similar kind of fetish as well. Once this one is finished it’s going to be just fucking incredible!

Not only is Miss Isabella one of NiteFlirt’s highest rated Domme’s, She’s also a web designer, artist and professional photographer. You can see her work here After a few days of recording We/we ended up with some spare time during which Miss Isabella decided to allow deidre to be photographed by her. deidre’s naked in a tub full of bubbles with her leather lined stainless steel cuffs on. Now, of course Miss Isabella had let slip that She is an ‘ass woman’ and deidre used every opportunity she had to show off her assets.

deidre was feeling pretty frisky. About half way through the shoot this girl started to tease Miss Isabella more strongly than she had been throughout the day asking her if Her pretty pussy was getting wet, if She was turned on, if She thought deidre was sexy. deidre just loves being a naughty little tease, but this time she wanted to do more than tease. deidre wanted to be allowed to make Miss Isabella cum so badly that her mouth was watering!

Few things affect deidre more than knowing that she is arousing Someone, knowing that Someone wants to use her for their pleasure. By the time deidre was kneeling at the foot of Miss Isabella’s bed this girl was slippery soaking wet. she looked up at Miss Isabella and begged for permission to be allowed to crawl onto the bed. It was granted and deidre did so nestling in between Miss Isabella’s legs. In Miss Isabella’s words, “…oh dear God almighty. I think I heard the Angels sing. I think I heard the Goddesses in heaven thundering and having orgies while I came. I screamed, I came, I conquered... and deidre's naked body between My legs was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen in My entire life. But I think what turned Me on the most, even more than the orgasms, was the look in her eyes while I was cumming, because she has this mischievious smile that says, "Ummhmmm I'm doing this to you and I love it." I will never in a million years forget that.” It was so incredibly erotic. It was so fucking hot to feel and to breathe in Miss Isabella’s scent while She was cumming and gasping. ~sigh~

The whole trip was wonderful, even if you include that screw up at the airline (deidre’s going to blame them). Miss Isabella has invited deidre back again for more recordings, sessions, and play sometime in the future. If deidre’s allowed to accept the invite she will be one very happy little slave girl.

Boarding School Humiliation mp3

deidre’s been naughty again and is called into the principal’s office. Miss Valentine may have to expel deidre if doesn’t shape up soon. As fellow students peek into the office Miss Valentine gives deidre the corporal punishment she deserves. Being forced to get naked while the others watch adds to deidre’s humiliation. What this naughty student discovers in the end is that this form of humiliation is strangely erotic especially when combined with the sweet taste of Miss Valentine’s pussy.

If you like abnormal vaginal insertions, bare bottom spanking, corporal punishment, dominance, girl on girl, humiliation, hair pulling, oral sex, schoolgirl roleplay, submission, voyeurism, wooden paddles and more then you’ll love this mp3!

Disclaimer: All participants in this recording are 18 or over and no students are implied to be under the age of 18.

This 13 minute 48 second mp3 is downloadable in .zip format for $19.99

Gagged by Goddess mp3

deidre’s asleep when Miss Isabella sneaks into her room in the middle of the night and ties her to the bed with silk scarves (spread eagled and naked while she's still sleeping). When this girl finally wakes up and realizes what's been done to her, deidre’s mouth is stuffed with a pair of panties and she’s finger fucked to orgasm. After cumming, a set of clover clamps go onto deidre’s nipples and her mouth is filled with a ball gag. Miss Isabella then spanks deidre’s pussy, teasing her relentlessly, allowing her pleasure and light pain. When the gag is removed deidre is allowed to taste that pretty pussy, sucking and licking until Miss Isabella cums.

If you enjoy dominance, girl on girl, gags, light spanking, mouth bondage, oral sex, orgasm control, panties, submission and more then you’ll love this mp3!

This 13 minute 42 second mp3 is downloadable in .zip format for $19.99

degradation

Maybe deidre's slight twisted (slightly? you ask) but she loves this e-mail that she just received in response to her return to NiteFlirt after her trip.

cunt!
i cannt wait to degrade you
piece of fuckkin shit
fukk hole
who the fukk do you think you are to go away?
i had jizz to spill!
fuckmeat!
piece 0f cum target!
whoremeat
fukk you cunt
suck my asshole dry!

This particular person has the most creative name calling skills deidre has seen in a long time. Yeah, for some reason it really turns this girl on.