Why Speak in 3rd person?

indreamsshecame recently commented that she had “never met someone who speaks in 3rd person. you mention that it is important to you, and if you would be so kind, i would appreciate learning more about why it feels right for you.”

deidre realized that while she addressed the question of how and when she learned to do so here she’s never exactly explained the purpose behind it.

First of all, and this isn’t directed toward any person in particular, deidre would like to say that there is quite a bit of negativity in certain communities toward those who are allowed to speak this way. It seems to stem from the mistaken assumption that those who do so are “only online slaves” Regardless of how the person serves (internet, phone, cam, weekend, evening or 24/7) this girl assumes that they still give the same amount of devotion. Saying that those who serve or control online or only part time are not real or are somehow less than others is just as ludicrous as saying that submissives are something less than slaves because they don’t submit fully. It’s not true. Each holds a different level of submission or dominance according to what meets the needs of the person. It doesn’t make them less real. The only thing that would make a person something less in this girl’s mind is if they chose not to express this particular parts of themselves as fully as possible.

Now, onto the actual question. Why speak in 3rd person?

kaya_s said it very well recently here when she said Third person speech in the context of a Master/slave relationship is a psychological technique designed to erase, or neutralize the sense of "I". Speaking in third creates detachment of self and as the gap between the 'I' and the 'me' deepens, the slave is forced into the position of pure object and loses his or her sense of interiority, intimacy, and privacy. The denial of these pronouns is the removal of ego.

Not only does it erase the sense of “I” and remove the focus from self but it is also a way for an Owner to take even more control. In deidre’s situation not only does He control what she wears, what and when she eats, where and when she shits, pisses, sleeps, sometimes even her breath but her speech as well. Every time she refers to herself she uses the name He gave her (deidre), or refers to her status as His (Master’s slave, Your bitch etc). The idea is that nothing is done with Him being the first thought in her mind.

Regret

celticslave said "You have spoken of your past and how you wouldn’t change any of it. Life is not worth living if you have regrets however When was the defining moment for you on realizing that?"

"If Only. Those must be the two saddest words in the world" - Mercedes Lackey

deidre believes that it was something that happened gradually. During the first day of deidre’s 7th grade English Literature class the teacher decided to do something a little different. She had us all turn our desks away from the black board and toward the other side of the room where a television was. She popped in a tape, dimmed the lights, hit play on the remote and we were transported in the cinematic reality that is "Dead Poet’s Society"

The teacher’s point was to introduce us to Walt Whitman’s "O Captain My Captain" but the movie had a far great impact on deidre than the teacher anticipated. Not only did it inspire deidre to become an English teacher, (a dream she held onto as long as possible, but not one that worked with her marriage) but for the first time she heard the phrase "carpe diem". deidre began to think about what that meant. Seize the day. Time is short. Don’t put off the things that are important. Don’t waste time with insincerity or regret.

deidre remembers when it really hit her, and she understood everything that those 2 little words meant. she was in high school, and actually still has the piece of paper on which she wrote, "Never be ashamed of doing something you wanted to do - only be ashamed of not doing something you wanted to do." Do the things you want, do them all, savor life, become fulfilled and regret nothing. If you think you might regret passing up the chance to do something seize that chance, and ride that ride.

Of course, there are always consequences, and those consequences have evolved into what the lack of regret is really focused on. From any situation sift out the good and leave the bad behind. deidre wasn’t able to truly apply this until after her attempted suicide. As she has written, it was a life changing experience. It emphasized how precious every moment really is. deidre’s "no regrets" self policy was enforced once again after her rape. Yes, a rape is a horrible experience, but it is also an experience that changed deidre once again. she grew up a lot that night, took that growth as positive and left the rest behind her.

It isn’t just the big things that shape us. Everything has an effect, even those things that we cannot see. Past events silently mold each and every one of us into the person we are at present. It is because of that, because of the person that deidre has become, that deidre does not regret anything thing, not the rape, not the attempted suicide, not choosing to drink hot cocoa instead of coffee on some winter’s day. To regret any one of those things is to ultimately regret the person that deidre is, to wish that she was different. And honestly, deidre likes the person she has grown into.

Island Fun

celticslave said "You have 48 hours on an island in the middle of the ocean. You are allowed to take 5 people with you. You are allowed to take 5 toys with you for play. Who would you take and what would happen with the six of you while on the island?"

Since you didn’t specify which island deidre is going to choose the one that Johnny Depp owns, while he’s there :) Since he’s already there he doesn’t exactly count as one of the 5 that deidre brings with her.

deidre’s thought about this a lot. One would think she would chose something “lifestylish” to do, but if she only has the one opportunity, and there are no conditions set other than those in the question itself deidre would bring with her 1)Master 2)A, deidre’s step daughter 3)J, deidre’s 13 year old sister 4) Her grandmother on her mother’s side 5) her grandmother on her father’s side.

Both of deidre’s grandmothers are dead, but neither of them had the chance to meet Master. Gramma S died when deidre was 8. deidre would love for not only to meet Master, but also to see the woman that her granddaughter has grown into. Gramma B died just a few years ago, but at the time deidre was miserably married to her ex husband still.

The reason for bringing A should be obvious. Not a day goes by when deidre doesn’t think of her. A is the only daughter that deidre will ever have. This girl raised her from the time she was 2 until she was 9 years old. deidre taught her to read, how to do her hair, took her to kindergarten for the first time and to school every day that she went after that. deidre was there when her eyes lit up at Christmas and spend hours the day before each birthday making elaborate cakes for A. deidre was there when she woke up in the middle of the night scared, when she scraped her knee or fell off of the horse. If deidre could have 2 more days with her telling her how much deidre loves her and that it wasn’t this girl’s decision to cease contact deidre would be happy. Even if it meant that deidre would never again hear from her or see her.

J is a beautiful young girl but because of certain events in her life has low self-esteem. She’s at that phase where girls are unsure of themselves, she’s changing, growing, becoming a woman. Mom is around much, deidre can’t be because she lives 2500 miles away, but for just 2 days deidre would like to tell J how special she is, how loved and beautiful she is.

deidre would bring with her a video camera, extra batteries, a stash of cameras, a stack of paper and some pens. Each person would have a camera so that they could take pics whenever they wanted of whomever they wanted. The video camera would be running constantly while the 6 (7 if Johnny joined in) interacted. Gramma S would have a both kids in her lap finding a way to make them laugh and to play with them even without toys. Gramma B would be sitting next to Master asking Him all kinds of questions that one would never expect to hear from a 90 year old woman. If Master answered one thing wrong Gramma B would probably kick His ass. deidre would be sitting between both of her grandmothers taking down their stories, recipes etc. All of the things that deidre heard over and over for years but never thought to retain. Death isn’t something one usually thinks about with people like grandmothers until it happens.

At night we’d sit around the campfire reminiscing, laughing, crying until things settled down and we’d stare up into the stars as we drift off to sleep.

Saying goodbye would be hard. deidre can imagine her grandmothers pulling her aside one at a time to tell her how proud of her they are, and how much the like Master. Asking one last time if deidre is sure that she is happy. Perhaps even telling her that all of those years they were looking down upon her and they will continue to do so when they go back.

It would be hard to let A go, and to know that deidre would probably never see her again, but now she would have all new memories to hold onto. We’d have 2 precious days that were plucked out of time where nothing existed but us and we could just enjoy each other.

It’d be hard to say goodbye to J too, but deidre knows we will see each other and talk with each other again. Even though there are so many miles between us, J is just a phone call away.

anal sex - tips & experiences

slave_karirenee asked "Is there anything that you can do to make it less painful? Is there anything that can do to prepare yourself before doing sex? And finally, is there anything that you can do to mentally prepare yourself? Because I think most of it, is that I have a mental block, for some reason. "

The first time it happened was when she was 18. she was at her future mother-in-law’s house. N. had cooked deidre a lovely meal things had wound down and we were sitting in the fireplace room. We started kissing and making out and eventually were naked. deidre got down on the floor and bent over an ottoman so that we could fuck doggie style (deidre’s favorite position) Everything was fine until N’s cock slipped out of deidre’s cunt and slammed hard all the way into her ass.

deidre thought she was going to die. It hurt so badly that she ended up curling into a fetal position and laying there crying until the pain went away. For the next 7 years, while she still loved being fucked from behind, there was always this little thought rattling around that it just may happen again. N. only tried once more to use deidre’s ass and it was a failure. He was so worried about causing deidre pain that his cock never even made it all of the way in.

deidre’s next experiences with anal sex were with B, the Dom she was fucking before her divorce and before she met Master. One night we were in his car, deidre was on her back with her ass resting on the center console, her back on the seat and her head and neck bend up against the passenger side door. B was fingering her cunt pretty vigorously and had her cum three or four times. When she was done he told her that during the first orgasm he had slipped a finger into her ass and had been fucking both holes at the same time. seidre never even noticed the finger going in. she didn’t realize that he had slipped it in until he told her.

After that he would use her ass whenever he wanted. He’d slide his cock inside deidre’s cunt, fuck her for a few strokes so it was slick with her pussy juice and then force it up inside her ass. He had quite a thick cock and liked to use it as an ass-stretching tool. He’d push himself all the way in and the rotate his hips causing deidre even more pain than his dick alone would have.

deidre distinctly remembers one time when she had her hands bound behind her back, nipple clamps on her nipples with her chest down on the floor as he fucked her ass from behind. Every time he thrust it forced deidre’s clamped nipples to rub against the floor, eventually, without the use of her hands to keep her in one place she slid so far that her head was banging up against the wall. It was one of the most painful sex experiences deidre has had.

The last time that deidre had anal sex where it hurt badly was on the night of her collaring, as part of the ceremony. After placing the collar around her neck, Master dribbled some lube onto her tongue and instructed her to lube His cock. He then had her get down onto her hands and knees and began to fuck her hard. There was no prep time, no time for deidre to relax, at this point she still was terrified of anal sex. Master used his cock as a tool to hurt her, to take her violently until she was crying and whimpering. It seemed to take forever but finally He left His seed inside her.

After that night Master worked with deidre on making anal sex more enjoyable. He would insert small butt plugs into her to stretch her just a little before hand, or allow her to slide a finger up inside to open herself up a little. He’d make sure that both his cock and deidre’s asshole were well lubed and that deidre relaxed a little before sliding it in. Sometimes He would just slide it in and hold it there while deidre rubbed her clit and made herself cum, other times she was allowed to masturbate while He fucked her ass slowly. Eventually deidre got to the point where Master could fuck her ass very hard and she would be able to cum without any other stimulation whatsoever.



Here are deidre’s anal tips

First, relaxation is very important. The inside of your asshole is like a little tube with two separate muscles surrounding it. The external sphincter muscle is under your control, the internal one is not. If you can get yourself into the right state of mind the sphincter will not clench down just before hand making it harder to penetrate and more painful.

Secondly, lubrication is also very important. Use as much as you are comfortable with. If you need to get a towel to place under you, go for it. Lube up both the cock and your ass, inside and outside.

Masturbation can be very helpful as well. If you play with yourself it will help to take your mind off of what is happening and will combine the pleasure of cumming with any initial discomfort with having something slide into your ass.

Practice is also a good idea. Get to know your asshole. Place a mirror on the floor and crouch over to see just what it looks like. Try using a lubed finger or even something like a baby carrot to start out with. Just relax and slide it in slowly. You can test your sphincter relaxation by tightening and loosening around the object. In this way you will be able to know what your body feels like when it’s relaxing and more easily put yourself into that state just before anal sex.

After the finger/carrot stage, move to a small anal plug or dildo/vibe. Again lube it and your anus well, take your time and relax. Try fucking yourself at different speeds and in different positions to see what feels the best.

Lastly you will be ready for a large dildo or cock. Just beforehand, lube a finger and slide it in. It will open you slightly for the larger object. Get into the chosen position, remember to relax, and begin to experience a wonderful new aspect of your sexuality.

Is Piss Play Safe?

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Over the line?

Question from SlavemasterD ~ Does your slavery include your Master's right to order you to have sex with people of his choosing or is that over the line?

Yes, MasterD. deidre’s slavery includes His right to order her to have sex with anyone or anything. deidre has no limits with Him. If He ordered her to eat shit, she would. If He ordered her to stand still as He cut off the big toe on her left foot, she would (do her best). If He ordered her to walk out of the house and down the street to the grocery store naked knowing that she would probably get thrown in jail, she would. You can add more extreme things to this list if You wish. Pick anything at all, no matter how outlandish, the answer is yes. deidre’s job is simply to obey.

Is it possible for deidre to make a choice to not do something. Sure. Of course it is. deidre has a conscience, she has fears and dislikes. Is it probable that deidre will make a choice not to do something. No. Master has His reasons for everything that He instructs her to do. deidre may not know or understand them, but they are reasons nonetheless.

deidre also has a slight advantage because she knows that Master takes His responsibility seriously and isn’t likely to order her to murder someone, or do something to deidre that will damage her just because He can. He’s not on a power trip, and doesn’t need to test deidre’s devotion. After all what is the point of having a slave if she is in prison or is wounded or ill and cannot serve?

Piss Play Pointers

If you’ve never tasted it, be warned, it’s like drinking a very bitter hot tea (minus the tea). It may make you gag, and will probably make you shudder. deidre would recommend getting used to the taste by drinking your own. deidre has several callers that have her lick her own piss up off of the floor or drink it out of a bowl. It keeps her in practice and has helped her to get used to it.

Master will normally drink A LOT of water before He allows deidre to take His water. 6 – 8 cups or so. This dilutes it. Remember piss is all of the liquid waste from your body. It’s the crap that your body can’t use. He’ll also pee once or twice before He lets deidre start to drink it.

The first few times He allowed deidre to be down on the floor in the shower. He would push His cock into her mouth. deidre thinks that since her mouth was full of cock there was no room for the piss and it made it harder to swallow.

Master would try to control the flow of His piss letting it come out into little spurts, but it still didn’t seem to help. As hard as deidre tried some of it would still end up on her and not in her tummy. So Master modified His technique a little. deidre was allowed to begin just placing her lips at the tip of His cock, taking part of His head into her mouth as He gave her His water. This seemed to work much better. deidre stopped spilling any. We basically just turned His cock into a straw.

He’ll also have her down on her knees with her mouth open like a little birdy and piss into her mouth that way. Now that she’s had more practice swallowing with her mouth open it’s easier to do so.

Being drunk might help a little too. ;) The last time deidre remembers it being really easy was after a shared bottle of champagne.

deidre would recommend that you do not try to make yourself think it’s lemonade by refrigerating it and putting ice cubes in it. deidre doesn’t know how or why, but it just makes it worse.

deidre has probably left some things out so if you have anything to add please feel free.

A Day of Anal

Greystroke’s Question # 3

Let’s see. If deidre is allowed an entire day devoted only to her sister’s ass it would be wonderful! Let’s assume that this sister feels much the same way that deidre did about anal play when deidre came to Master. We’ll call her x to make it easier. x will have been fucked in her ass before simply as if it were only another hole (which it is) with no desire for her to ever feel pleasure that way. she’ll never have had anyone use her tongue on her ass, and be quite skittish about things ass related in general.

deidre knows exactly how x feels, she’s been there before after all, so first thing in the morning deidre will draw a hot bubble bath for her sister. The two of us will get in together and relax for a few moments before we start to talk about how this command from Master makes x feel a bit uncomfortable, in fact it makes her feel downright humiliated, but she’d never deny Him. her face is burning bright red and her eyes are down as she almost whispers her shame. Deidre kisses her on her forehead, tilts her chin up to kiss her nose and finally places her lips to her sisters lightly. X raises her eyes to deidre’s and deidre tells her that it’s ok, that it will all be alright. Just remember this is for His pleasure. His pleasure will become yours.

deidre begins to wash x’s body, allowing her to lie back and relax as the bath puff glides over x’s skin. Her nipples harden and x moans slightly as deidre caresses every part of her slowly, washing away her shame until she glistens. deidre’s cupped hands gently spill warm water down onto x to rinse away the body wash. she smells of citrus and ginger.

deidre slips in behind x, with deidre’s back resting up against the tub, her legs spread. X is sitting up just in front of her. All that separates x from the heat of deidre’s cunt is a few inches of fragrant water. X tilts her head back and deidre begins to wet her hair with fresh water from the spout and then to wash her hair with blackberry shampoo. deidre massages the suds into x’s scalp until she is moaning with pleasure, and then once again rinses her.

When we step out of the tub deidre pulls the big fluffy white towel off of the towel rack and begins to dry x’s body from head to toe. X sits down and deidre begins to comb the snarls from her wet hair gently, part it in the middle and braid it into the little girl braids that Master adores her in.

deidre leads x to the bedroom and has her lie down, face up on the bed, and get comfortable. deidre will crawl up on the bed next to x, lying on her side, facing x. deidre starts with a kiss, a teasing kiss where her lips hardly touch x’s lips, a kiss of nothing more than breath, slowly trailing these breathing kisses across x’s face, to her forehead, her nose, her cheeks, her chin, her neck, over to each ear, and then begin to trail the kisses down x’s body, hovering just a little longer over each nipple until they are engorged with blood. No part of deidre will actually touch x as she takes in x’s scent from her cunt and then breathes it back onto her. After deidre’s breath has tickled the very last toe she begins to kiss her way back up, this time with long slow sucking kisses, taking time to taste every part of x’s body until she is once again kissing x’s mouth, this time hard, passionate, sucking the breath from x until she is panting, until every nerve is crying out.

Once again deidre kisses her way down to x’s nipples, using her fingers and mouth until x is writhing, stopping only to move down to x’s dripping wet and hot cunt. x parts her legs as deidre begins to tease with her tongue licking up and down her slit, tasting her juices, savoring them, using her tongue to scoop them out of that sweet fuck hole. X’s body tenses, quivers, she screams out over and over and the collapses in that after orgasm nirvana.

One finger slides up inside, swirling, then curving to bring out that creamy treat. It’s painted onto x’s mouth like lip gloss, dipped inside again and applied onto her areola and hard nipples. deidre’s mouth closes around x’s clit again to bring her to 2…3…4 orgasms; to force x’s mind to be overcome by the pleasure so that while deidre’s tongue continues to tease x’s clit her finger can begin to slowly explore x’s sensitive hole.

That one finger, coated in more fuck juice, circles slowly around the opening, presses against it lightly, then circles again until finally just the tip presses inside. deidre holds her finger there, just slightly invading the tight ring of x’s asshole as she begins to once again bring x to orgasm. At that moment when x is bucking and screaming with pleasure deidre slides her finger in all the way and begins to fuck her gently.

to be continued...

The significance of the name 'deidre'

"Where did the name Deidre come from? Did you chose it, or have any say in it? Do you like the name? And could you please explain why your name was changed? I don't really understand that. Thanks!"

deidre is an Irish name meaning melancholy. It’s a variant of the older name Deirdre. In Celtic legend a druid prophesied at her birth that she would bring great misfortunes. Deirdre, chosen to be the wife of Conchobar, king of Ulster, fell in love with Naoise, the son of Usnach, and fled with him and his two brothers to Scotland. After a long idyllic stay there, they were enticed into returning to Ireland by Conchobar, who then treacherously killed the sons of Usnach. Deirdre, her heart broken, died on her lover's grave. This legend was very popular with the writers of the Irish literary renaissance, notably Yeats (one of this girl’s favorites), Synge, and James Stephens.

About 10 years ago deidre began studying Paganism/Wicca. One thing that was recommended was that a ceremonial or magickal name be created in 3 parts that corresponded numerologically with her non-magickal name. she doesn’t remember why she was supposed to pick 3 words to combine together to create this name, but she chose Deirdre, silver and moon to start. she was unable to come up with the right combination and so tried Deirdre, moon and rose. It still didn’t seem to work so she played with the spelling of Deirdre a little and came up with Deidre moon rose as her magickal name.

When Master came along He began to mention a slave name. It would be a new and better name to go along with her new and better life. The first one that came to mind was deidre (note the lowercase ‘d’), from her magickal name. After thinking about it for a while, Master decided that He liked it. Since then it has been this girl’s name, and eventually it will become her legal name as well

a baby with Master

"Do you ever fantasize about having a baby? Is that something that you have ever discussed with Master?"

deidre spent the first 24 years of her life wanting a child. A sweet little girl who would be Madilyn Alexis or a beautiful baby boy who would be Tristan Gawain. After many years of trying with her ex she finally did get pregnant and was incredibly happy. It was what she had dreamed of since she was a little girl.

she made doctor’s appointments, stopped smoking and drinking, started eating very healthily and even forced her ex to clean the litter box just to make sure that nothing would harm her little baby.

Then it came time for the first sonogram. N. took the morning off work so that he could come with deidre. she got undressed put on the paper gown and got up onto the exam table.

The doctor came in and did all of his normal prelim stuff, then it was finally time. He put some of that funky gel stuff on the sonogram instrument, had deidre spread her legs and put her heels in the little metal things so that he could have easy access and slid the instrument up inside.

deidre and N. could see the screen and the picture but couldn’t make anything out. After a few moments the doctor finally said “I can’t seem to find it” moved the instrument around some more and then finally pulled it out. By this point deidre knew. Something was wrong. Her heart was breaking.

The doctor explained that there was no fetus. Somehow her body was going through all of the motions of being pregnant, but the fetus must’ve been absorbed by the baby because there was something wrong with it.

He told deidre that in the next few weeks her body would be shedding everything and she would have a miscarriage. There would be no reason to go to the ER unless the pain was really bad.

Within a few days it happened, but until then she had somehow hoped that the doctor had been wrong, or made a mistake and that she would carry through with the pregnancy to have her longed for beautiful child.

Things weren’t ever quite the same after that. It took deidre over a year to get over her loss. she didn’t show it outwardly, but every once in a while she would just break down.

Then one day she went to the grocery store and found this poor little shit covered flea ridden 5 week old Siamese kitten to take home, love and cherish. She was so small she even needed to be bottle fed. Moonshadow filled that hole in deidre’s heart that had been left by her miscarriage.

Life as a slave, devoting herself totally to Master, and keeping Him as her one and only focus sort of rules out the possibility of having or trying for another child.

When deidre was pregnant the second time, she fantasized about it, but then realized that it really wouldn’t work. Since then she has no desire to have a child, only to be Master’s slave and to please Him with her total focus where it belongs.


Firstly, Master has never wanted one. He’s just not the Fatherly type (the perfect Daddy for deidre, but not really paternal).

Secondly, with a child in the house who needs to nurse, who has to have diapers changed, who cries, and needs to be held and nurtured, Master would become second. And that kind of defeats the purpose of being a Master and having a slave. Not to mention how her life would change in other ways. she would basically have to revert to being a submissive in the bedroom, or when the child is at school, and a mom the rest of the time. No more being naked, no more bowing, no more speaking in the third person or getting down on her knees to worship Master at any point during the day that He desires

Being loaned out

"Have you ever fantasized about Master 'Pimping you out' or lending you to one of his friends? How would you feel if he did?"

Yes, deidre has fantasized about being lent or sold to others. Not to His friends, but to others. Master has even discussed it with a few of her Callers and some people on Collarme.

He has incredibly strict rules though that usually seem to scare those interested off, making it seem like it is more trouble than it is worth for a piece of snatch.

If Master did ever find someone that would meet all of His demands, and He let deidre be a little whore for Him, deidre would love it. she’d be doing something to please Him.

Besides there is something so incredibly erotic about making someone, male or female, cum. Knowing that they are doing so because of you, because of your mouth, ass or pussy, or simply because you have given yourself to them. It must be a submissive thing, but really, getting to have someone’s cum is one of the highest compliments that deidre can think of for a slave. It is the physical evidence of their pleasure.

deidre's first "enjoyable" sexual encounter

"Tell us about your first 'enjoyable' sexual encounter. The one where you knew that cock, pussy, and ass would be something at the forefront of your life forever."

Hmmm….deidre’s first ENJOYABLE sexual encounter. Let’s see. she was 17, it was her last semester of High School. she’d moved back to her childhood home and was around all of the people she grew up with and went to school with up until the time she moved to Northern California 2 years previous.

deidre had been out of touch with most of her friends while she was going to her other school, but it was fun to reunite with them when she moved back. Especially her ex-boyfriend, Mike. Mike was currently dating deidre’s former best friend Lisa, but it didn’t seem to matter much. He was deidre’s first and he always would have a special connection with her and always said that the reverse was true.

Whenever deidre was having issues, couldn’t sleep or was just strait up bored, she would walk the 3 blocks to Mike’s house, knock on his door and hang out for a while. One night deidre’s former crush, Eddy, was there as well. The 2 of them were smoking pot so deidre decided to try too. she’s pretty sure that she didn’t do it right and it didn’t have much of an effect, but it was an excuse to let her inhibitions go.

We went inside and got naked. deidre laid down on the couch and Mike came over with His cock already nice and hard. He let deidre suck it for a while before getting on top of her and starting to fuck her. Now, this was not the good part. Mike basically put it in and started rutting. It didn’t’ feel good at all. In fact, because he was rather well endowed, it hurt, very badly. deidre started to cry and Eddy stepped in.

He had deidre get off of the couch and lie on the floor instead and told Mike to watch how it was really supposed to be done. Eddy spread her legs wide and buried his face in her cunt and began to go down on her. deidre had never had anyone do that before and it felt so good to feel him licking her, pushing his tongue up inside and flicking over her clit. Once her pussy was incredibly wet he had deidre get onto her hands and knees and pushed his cock into her from behind, fucking her nice and hard until he was ready to cum. Just before he pulled out and shot all over her ass and back.

Now, deidre didn’t exactly come to the conclusion that cock, pussy and ass would be as important as they are now at this point. That didn’t happen for almost 10 years later. After all, deidre did try to be a good girl. she tried to be the wife, mother and daughter that everyone expected her to be, it just wasn’t deidre. A girl can’t spend her entire life acting.

As far as pussy goes, deidre didn’t even have her first real taste until she was 24. She’s written before about how wonderful it was to make Carrie cum, about how Carrie sounded so fucking hot just before saying “uh hu” over and over and then squirting her juices. It was deidre’s former playmate and Dom who introduced deidre to cunt for the first time and she’s never been the same since.

To be honest, having deidre’s ass fucked and enjoying it is a very recent thing. If you take something big, like a cock, and stick it up side a tight little hole like that it’s going to hurt. If nobody ever takes the time to teach you that it can feel good, or to tell you to relax, it’s going to hurt. Until Master, deidre’s ass was just another hole for a cock to go into, and it always hurt bad enough that she became terrified of anal sex. Fortunately Master helped her work out of it so that she can now be the little ass whore that she was meant to be and enjoy every second of it.

deidre's tat

One of deidre’s close friends asked her about her tattoo and it’s meaning. she thought that if He was asking others might want to know too, so here You/you go.

deidre’s tattoo is made of 2 symbols. The one in the middle is the Sanskrit symbol ‘om’ or ‘aum’ depending on how you prefer to spell it. The second, which flanks the om is a Celtic symbol which was at some point taken over by Christians and bastardized to apply to their own beliefs as so many other pagan things have been (Easter {celebration of Oestra}, the basis for Satan {the great horned god}, Christmas {Yule}, etc).

OM is the boat that enables one to cross over the rivers of fear and the sound of true love. It encompasses all potentialities and possibilities; it is everything that was, is, or can yet be. It is omnipotent and likewise remains undefined. OM moves the cosmic vital force and expresses the vital breath. It is beyond gross, subtle and causal bodies, beyond waking, dreaming and deep sleep states of consciousness.

In every breath, it is uttered, repeated unintentionally and inevitably. Every vibration in the body and in the universe emerges from it, sustains in it, and returns to it. Every humming emerges from OM, sustains in it and returns to it. A child cries, "OM, OM;" musicians hum, "OM, OM;" bees buzz, "OM, OM" the ocean roars, "OM, OM."

To an aching person, humming soothes; to an ailing person, OM cures. To a poet, it brings inspiration. To the philosopher, it brings realization.

OM is the consent for the Goddess to enter. It is the expression of the seer of Truth. OM is the wisdom and the sound of the Goddess. It is eternal, the indestructible Word. OM is the nectarian Goddess-soul union cord.

It’s the one quest of all the saints, the one search of all the scientists, the one Soul of all the souls. OM is the one Truth which is worshiped in diverse ways. It brings equilibrium and wisdom. OM is the root. It is the support. It pervades and sustains all. It brings peace, bliss and power. OM kills the ego, desires and doubt.

OM is the language of the Goddess, is expressed by the Goddess. OM is the Goddess.

The triquetta represents the triplicities of mind, body, and soul, as well as the three domains of earth- earth, sea, and sky. The triqueta symbolizes the triple aspected goddess (maid, mother, and crone)

At the time when deidre was designing her tat, she had just begun her studies of Wicca. While she has never gone through her dedication ceremony she considers many of the beliefs of Witchcraft to be her own and tries to live by the rede doing no harm to anyone or anything, mental, physical, spiritual etc. The fact that there is a symbol that means deidre’s body, mind and soul are equal to the maid, mother and crone who are equal with the forces of earth, sea and sky is a very powerful thought. In fact, it essentially means that all things in nature are equal, that all of the energies that create our environment, our bodies, our minds, our perceptions and actions are equal. What better to display on your body than that belief?