Is Piss Play Safe?

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Over the line?

Question from SlavemasterD ~ Does your slavery include your Master's right to order you to have sex with people of his choosing or is that over the line?

Yes, MasterD. deidre’s slavery includes His right to order her to have sex with anyone or anything. deidre has no limits with Him. If He ordered her to eat shit, she would. If He ordered her to stand still as He cut off the big toe on her left foot, she would (do her best). If He ordered her to walk out of the house and down the street to the grocery store naked knowing that she would probably get thrown in jail, she would. You can add more extreme things to this list if You wish. Pick anything at all, no matter how outlandish, the answer is yes. deidre’s job is simply to obey.

Is it possible for deidre to make a choice to not do something. Sure. Of course it is. deidre has a conscience, she has fears and dislikes. Is it probable that deidre will make a choice not to do something. No. Master has His reasons for everything that He instructs her to do. deidre may not know or understand them, but they are reasons nonetheless.

deidre also has a slight advantage because she knows that Master takes His responsibility seriously and isn’t likely to order her to murder someone, or do something to deidre that will damage her just because He can. He’s not on a power trip, and doesn’t need to test deidre’s devotion. After all what is the point of having a slave if she is in prison or is wounded or ill and cannot serve?

Pony Boy

Oh man was this call fun. There’s a little bit of background to it. deidre is a slave who serves her Master by creating tapes to use for Blackmail. This particular client has lapsed a little bit and needs to be taught a little lesson. deidre’s been threatening him for months with sending tapes of him as a pony being fucked in the ass to his boss and several others at his place of employment.

(this is where the call starts) Just to insure that he realizes the seriousness of the situation deidre shows up one day at His house wearing a full latex body suit and her bright purple strap on. His wife is home, but she has no idea of who this girl is. deidre forces him to take off his pants in front of her and get onto his hands and knees like a good little bitch. She looks at his wife while squatting over him, then begins to ride him like a pony, her heels digging into his ribs that strap on rubbing against his lower back as she crops him yelling "Heehaw, Giddyup" forcing her little pony boy to neigh for her in front off his wife.

After he has completely humiliated himself she gets down and kneels down behind him to begin to fuck his ass with her strap on, hard, fast and deep. His cock is throbbing. His wife is standing there against the wall wide eyed, not quite believing what is happening when deidre asks her "You think he’s not my little bitch? You don’t believe he could possibly get off from this? You just keep on watching honey" deidre reaches down to begin to stroke his cock asking him who he belongs to, whose bitch he is, until he spunks onto his wife’s freshly cleaned floor.

Rrrraaaarrrrr!

The subjects of animal welfare, and the prevention of animal neglect and abuse are ones that are very close to deidre’s heart.

It began when she was in high school. she’d just moved up to the Sierra foothills. In the news were stories of people who had been hiking, or on their horse ranches and were attacked or killed by mountain lions. Generally the creature was simply trying to protect a cub or to defend it’s territory. Afterward, these animals would be hunted and killed. Now, deidre understands that once an animal like that gets the taste for human blood there is no way to fix it. she’s not saying that she knows what the solution is, just that there should be one.

What she is saying is that the reason that these attacks are happening is because the land that the animals can live on without human contact is quickly being taken over and turned into subdivisions, shopping centers and office buildings. There’s nowhere left for them to go. They are forced to adapt to the changes around them, and to defend what little is left for them.

When she was a senior she had an assignment for her economics class while we were learning about sole proprietorships, partnerships, corporations etc. The idea was to set up an imaginary corporation in the same way that a real one would need to be. Board members would need to be selected, office/business space leased, purchased or built, articles of incorporation written up etc.

Of course, deidre was the girl that always had to do things a little differently. Instead of a corporation, deidre decided to beg her teacher to be able to do a non-profit organization. Knowing the teacher, deidre made sure that she was wearing the lowest cut tight little top she could find and a very short little skirt. He had a thing for her legs. Eventually he said yes.

deidre got to work researching the requirements for a large animal rescue facility, buying up hundreds of acres, setting up imaginary equipment and writing up her own bylaws. By the time she was done she knew just about everything that a 16 year old could about caring for abandoned and abused large cats and if financed properly would have actually set it up after graduation.

Yesterday, thanks to everyone’s suggestions, deidre started putting together a short list of things that she would like to do for her birthday. They needed to be things that are close, not outrageously expensive and something that Master would enjoy as well. Some of these things include going to the aquarium as Daddy’s little girl, spending a day downtown going through the museums and antique stores, taking out the sailboat that Master built and having our own private picnic on a little island out in the Gulf and finally, the one that deidre really wants to do, go to Big Cat Rescue, a sanctuary over in Tampa. Theme restaurants, the theater and the symphony were also on the list but there are no local places like Medieval Times and deidre’s birthday falls on a weekend when there is nothing at the theater and the symphony is not playing.

So she was hunting around on the internet researching some of her options, writing down times of operation and admission prices etc, when she came to the website for the big cat sanctuary. Not only can a girl go there to see the animals but she can volunteer too! One of the things that deidre was looking forward to once a sister is here is having a little less time working, which makes more time for other things. she’s been considering spending her days off doing this anyway, she just didn’t know what she wanted to volunteer for. It would have to be book, music or animal related.

First you have to go on a regular tour, and then go through a volunteer orientation. At the end of the orientation is an interview with the volunteer committee. After that one gets their newbie shirt and starts within a week. There is a minimum of 16 hours per month to start with. deidre’s planning on talking with some people there when (if) she goes for her birthday to see if the required hours can be set by the volunteer or if deidre would have to make a whole new work schedule for herself in order to do this. Ideally she could go twice a month, every other Monday, working 8 hours each time. This could be the beginning (rebirth?) of deidre’s newest obsession and something that she can see herself being a part of for years to come.

All of the talk about the girls that are going to kindergarten for the first time reminds deidre of A’s first day. she’d been going to preschool at least 2 days a week since shortly after her second birthday. deidre thought it was important for her to have interactions with other kiddos her age. There weren’t too many kids near our home. It was all horse ranch property. A made some great friends.

Too soon it was time for her to go to "big girl school" though. On one hand it was a blessing, no more paying $18/day, but on the other hand, as bella said, it meant that A was starting to grow up. A was so excited to pick out her backpack and lunch bag, and her new outfit for the first day of school. These are the kinds of things that deidre will never forget. A’s eyes were wide with excitement, and she just couldn’t sit still.

deidre really hopes that one day her ex-husband grows up and lets deidre back into A’s life.

Master will be leaving again on Sunday for a quick trip up to Atlanta. He’ll be gone for 3 or 4 days, then come home for 3 or 4 days and then He leaves again for His bro’s birthday trip and will be gone another 12. Compared to kaya’s Master’s absence, this is nothing. Master’s trips seem to be getting longer and longer though. Maybe in the end Master needs 2 slaves not to be sisters but because He can install one at His home in Atlanta, spend half of His time there, and the other half here with deidre. Hell, if He’s going to go that far He may as well just search for 3. That way there can be 2 in each home, we can keep each other company when He’s gone and be doubly pleasing when He’s with us.

The photo shoot that deidre had back on the 7th was a lot of fun. It was for a Damsel in Distress site with a photographer that she met at last year’s FetishCon. There were several different "kidnapping" scenes in which deidre was tied down to a chair or table and left struggling. she was "pushed" into the pool with a weight tied to her ankles, she was "blown up" a few times by different bombs, there was even a scene with a knife, and one with a noose. Overall deidre has more than 800 photos to sort through and hopes that she can work with the photographer again. It was just a blast!

deidre’s been sleeping terribly lately. she started taking and antibiotic on Sunday that made her feel sort of foggy to begin with, then it turned into this terrible throbbing headache, and now she thinks that it is keeping her awake. It could be something else, but she’s blaming the pills for now. she got up this morning after only about 4 hours of sporadic sleep and needed coffee…badly. She went out to the kitchen, put the water into the maker, put in the filter ect and got it started. A little while later she went back to get her first cup and realized that she had forgotten to put the grounds into the filter. Usually deidre is pretty non-functional before coffee, but this morning was just pathetic.

deidre doesn’t know if it will be a valuable resource to anyone, but soon she’s going to be adding a "Reading List’ link. deidre goes through a lot of books (good thing for libraries!). Someone out there might be interested in what she’s reading.

If you can’t tell, deidre is running out of things to write about (in general, not just in this post) and it will be worse when Master is away. A few months ago deidre invited anyone to ask anything that they might want to know, up to 6 questions. She answered them one at a time as thoroughly as possible. Now she’s inviting you all to do it again, or to do it for the first time. Ask about anything except personal contact information. Please give deidre something to do when Master’s away that is worth being posted.

~deidre~

Playing Games

deidre has recently been chatting with a “Domme” from New York who kept insisting that she wanted to see deidre on cam. Since this was a woman who would eventually be here to use deidre in person this wasn’t a big deal but our first conversation was only a couple of days ago.

deidre understands someone’s desire to verify that a person is real. It’s pretty hard to make yourself look like a sweet young slave if you are a 60 year old horny balding overweight man on cam. But after a 2 minute ‘yes deidre is real’ cam showing this woman wanted to see deidre naked being disciplined. She kept insisting that she was now deidre’s co-owner (after 2 days?) and that Master said she could do anything that she wanted blah blah blah.

So deidre set up a couple of tests, one of which were references (which the “Domme” volunteered) through e-mail. When the first reference came back – surprise - surprise - the IP address was exactly the same as the Domme’s. This woman attempted to make a few excuses about how the computer must still be registered in NYC, but it’s pretty much impossible for 2 computers to have the same IP address unless they are right there at the same internet port using the same ISP. There was no way that it was a coincidence. So deidre drilled her until finally the bitch admitted that it was her boyfriend who had sent the e-mail from her computer. Not only had she lied about the reference, and the source of the reference but the entire thing was composed by her in the first place. Dishonesty is not something that deidre needs in her life so she basically said goodbye.

Anyway. The point is that sometimes you can do something to figure out who the fakes are. There are certain signs.

* Inconsistent stories – In building a relationship honestly is very important.
* Insistence of nude photos, or nude cam use from the beginning – Anyone who is really looking for a lifetime commitment can be patient enough to wait a little while before moving onto this step.
* Photos are only polished model type photos. No casual shots. – Sometimes this might not mean anything but chances are good that the photos were stolen from somewhere.
* Their e-mail address/chat name is new – If the username is new (yahoo shows you the creation date on profiles) then it may have been created as part of their game. This alone is certainly not an indicator, but coupled with some of the other points might cause one to wonder.
* If the relationship doesn’t move to phone in a few weeks – Unless the person is in another country and it’s not economical, there should be no reason why the connection cannot be taken to the next level.
* Chat is only erotic cyber-sex – No real partner who wants the relationship to grow is going to be interested in only sex.
* If things are set up to meet and the person refuses to give you personal information so that they can be “checked out”. - A person who has been honest with you all along should have no problem giving you their address, telephone number, full name and possibly SS# so that you can run a check on them.
* If the person is Dom and refuses you the ability to make safe calls. - Something is fishy if this is the case. If it’s your first visit this is a vital part of establishing trust and ensuring that your loved ones know you are alright.
* If the person never shows up at the airport (had this one happen). – Well obviously this is a pretty good indicator.
* If the person refuses to tell the people they are closest to that they are moving when the time comes (had this one too). – Either the person hasn’t made up their mind yet or they have already decided that they aren’t going to. Again, if a person can’t be honest what is the point?

There must be other signs, and she’s pretty sure that over the last 2 years she’s experienced them all. The search for a sister can sometimes be frustrating, but deidre knows that the perfect girl is out there somewhere just waiting to be taken as Master’s.

Wicca, handjobs and poetry

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Mad as Hell

You know, deidre just doesn’t get it. she’s not a political person. she knows the bare minimum about world news etc, but fuck! Why do they feel like they need to come here and fucking blow shit up. The world trade center was full of innocent people who had never done shit to any of them. It was all about the shock value. Let’s shake up those Americans. What did they get? They got a war where we go over and kill more people, so that they can come here to kill more innocent people, so that we can step up the amount of ass we are kicking there and kill more people.

When does it stop?

Piss Play Pointers

If you’ve never tasted it, be warned, it’s like drinking a very bitter hot tea (minus the tea). It may make you gag, and will probably make you shudder. deidre would recommend getting used to the taste by drinking your own. deidre has several callers that have her lick her own piss up off of the floor or drink it out of a bowl. It keeps her in practice and has helped her to get used to it.

Master will normally drink A LOT of water before He allows deidre to take His water. 6 – 8 cups or so. This dilutes it. Remember piss is all of the liquid waste from your body. It’s the crap that your body can’t use. He’ll also pee once or twice before He lets deidre start to drink it.

The first few times He allowed deidre to be down on the floor in the shower. He would push His cock into her mouth. deidre thinks that since her mouth was full of cock there was no room for the piss and it made it harder to swallow.

Master would try to control the flow of His piss letting it come out into little spurts, but it still didn’t seem to help. As hard as deidre tried some of it would still end up on her and not in her tummy. So Master modified His technique a little. deidre was allowed to begin just placing her lips at the tip of His cock, taking part of His head into her mouth as He gave her His water. This seemed to work much better. deidre stopped spilling any. We basically just turned His cock into a straw.

He’ll also have her down on her knees with her mouth open like a little birdy and piss into her mouth that way. Now that she’s had more practice swallowing with her mouth open it’s easier to do so.

Being drunk might help a little too. ;) The last time deidre remembers it being really easy was after a shared bottle of champagne.

deidre would recommend that you do not try to make yourself think it’s lemonade by refrigerating it and putting ice cubes in it. deidre doesn’t know how or why, but it just makes it worse.

deidre has probably left some things out so if you have anything to add please feel free.

Master's correction of an uppity slave

This morning, for the first time since Master allowed deidre to return to His home almost two and a half years ago, deidre was willfully disobedient. she was disrespectful, bratty and rude. Master punished her as she deserved for being such a bitch.

It started yesterday morning. deidre had just woken up and headed out to the living room to kneel down beside Master. He told her about an e-mail that came through that needed a response drafted. He asked deidre a question or two to which deidre did not know the answer. Instead of simply telling Him that she didn't know, she gave Him this long and drawn out answer. It irritated Him slightly. deidre has a tendency to make things harder than they are. But there is a reason for that.

deidre hates giving the wrong answer. she always has. Sometimes deidre can only give part of an answer because that’s all she knows. There have been times where deidre has given the answer that was simplest only later to have it blow up in her face. Now deidre's gut reaction is to give the answer that contains the most detail to avoid misunderstandings. For some reason lately Master and deidre seem to be having a lot of those. They are little things, but they pile up and work on deidre's psyche.

On with the story....Master began to direct her in the kind of response that He thought would be appropriate for this e-mail. At this point there was another misunderstanding. deidre took a deep breath and put her head down against the front of the buffet cabinet that is Master's entertainment center. This action was seen as more frustration and anger on deidre’s part. Since deidre hadn't yet had any coffee, Master told her how He was seeing her actions, told her to make coffee and to leave Him alone. One of deidre's responsibilities is to make sure that she never appears to be anything other than a devoted, eager to serve slave. Displays of anger are not a part of that presentation.

So, she left, her feelings hurt, and started on her day, making sure that she left Him alone. In a half an hour or so Master gathered up some things, and left to go to the hardware store. This ended up hurting more of deidre's feelings which mutated into actual anger. He had left without saying goodbye, without a kiss or a touch or a single word. In deidre's world this is a huge no-no. Yeah, deidre’s a slave right? Who says she gets to make the rules. No one, but what if something had happened to Him? What if He had gotten in a car accident or been mugged and shot or who knows what else? deidre's last memory of Him would be that she had pissed Him off, that perhaps the accident had been caused because He was upset etc. deidre would have to live with that for the rest of her life, knowing that she had been instrumental in her Owner's death. Maybe it’s selfish, but really no one deserves to feel that way.

Eventually He came home without a scratch and continued on with His business. deidre had hoped that He wouldn't be upset anymore and that We/we could talk about it. Finally, after hours went by, deidre made some comment about something that was on the radio. Poof. Everything was back to normal. We/we still hadn't discussed anything, but His tone was no longer one of a disciplinarian.

At some point during the day deidre had drafted the note as Master instructed her to. There was another misunderstanding that prompted a discussion on why Master seemed upset this morning. It turns out that He was under the impression that He had told deidre to come back and talk to Him when she could do so without being angry, not to just simply leave Him alone. deidre begged Him to please not ever leave the way that He did again, and explained to Him why. He told her that if she was going to behave the way she was that He would continue to leave without saying anything to her no matter what she thought. Again, this hurt deidre's feelings. Before the conversation could be finished the phone rang and deidre ended up on a 3 hour long phone sex call.

When she was done, Master was already asleep.

This morning everything seemed fine. deidre was still hurt and didn't understand why Master wouldn't promise not to leave that way again but deidre didn’t want to push the issue. she just wanted to get through most of the day without any miscommunications. We/we started working on a project together. At some point deidre needed to make a call, but the phone didn't want to work right. deidre got frustrated, closed her eyes and took a deep breath. Master saw this as another sign of anger. The phones in this house have actually been a major point of frustration for the past few weeks.

deidre’s reaction irritated Him, but He suggested that she use His cell phone instead. she got the phone, opened it and discovered that it was off. Master’s cell phone doesn’t have a button dedicated to turning it on and off. It’s designed to have some mysterious way of doing it, which deidre now knows. deidre’s only done it once or twice and couldn’t remember how to do it. So she asked. Master looked at her and said something like, “You don’t know how to turn on the cell phone?” deidre read too much into His comment and it translated as, “Hey you stupid cunt. Aren’t you smart enough to even turn on a simple cell phone?” That wasn’t His intention, but at that point it didn’t matter. All of the frustration that deidre had felt from yesterday spilled over it all combined and deidre let it all out. she started shouting at Master that this is the very reason why she can’t just give Him a simple “she doesn’t know” answer, because He gets this tone that makes her feel like some kind of fucking dumb ass stupid worthless piece of shit. This is that point when kaya’s fairy would be hiding behind something say, “oh girl, you have done it now!”

The rest is kind of a blur. He grabbed deidre’s hair in His fist, yanked it hard, told her to come with Him. He had her lie down over the ottoman. He came back and started to beat her ass and thighs with His belt. At first deidre refused to react. she wasn’t about to give Him the satisfaction, but as He continued it became more difficult to ignore. Soon she was whimpering then screaming, the screaming as loud as she possibly could. That’s when He stopped.

He told her to kneel down in front of Him. she was still angry of course and it was written across her face loud and clear. He began to explain that He didn’t want a little bitch like that in His house. He told her when she came to be His that He would never send her away, He would still never get rid of her, but that doesn’t mean that He can’t just lock her away in the cage for the next week until her behavior improves.

At some point deidre was given the chance to talk, to explain what had led up to her tantrum, which is basically what it was. We/we talked and came to some conclusions. When Master gets “that tone” it doesn’t mean He thinks she’s stupid. He knows His slave is not stupid. When He gets the other “that tone” it doesn’t mean that He is pissed at her. Usually it means He’s just frustrated, mostly it’s directed at something other than deidre, but the way she is wired, she tries to take responsibility for everything. Hearing either of those 2 tones normally makes deidre want to just hide, to shrink inside herself and not come out until everything is happy again. We/we agreed that deidre needs to make sure that if she feels that anything is wrong she needs to talk to Him. If Master sees an action as meaning one thing, when it doesn’t she needs to explain it to Him in a properly submissive manner.

For a while He just held her in His arms while she cried and apologized. He told her that she is not a bad slave, that He loves her, and that sometimes even good slaves need to be corrected.

Afterward He took deidre into the bedroom and allowed her to worship His cock with her mouth until He came into her throat, then allowed her to just cuddle up in a fetal position down between His legs for a while.

Now everything really is all better. Well, except deidre’s butt. It has some nice red marks and welts across it to remind deidre to contain herself.